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02 December 2004 @ 12:15 pm
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kathyh wanted a human Darla at Christmas drabble for her inside beta-reading of the Londo essay. It turned out to be another mini ficlet (562 words). Why can't these characters keep it brief(er)? Anyway. Early season 2 of AtS. No Tiny Tim in sight.

Christmas Carol

Wolfram and Hart lets its employees celebrate Christmas. It's a quaint fact Darla discovers when Lindsey asks her, hesitating, whether she wants to spend the holidays with him. She declines, with a smile just amused enough to tease but not to taunt; after all, she is well aware she needs all the allies she can get in her new and weak human state.

"Someone has to be working," she adds, "and it is time that I…"

"Start earning your keep?" Lilah suggests. Darla's smile does not falter. Inwardly, she wonders what Lilah would taste like.


So she is alone in the apartment they gave her, with a lot of food she has had to learn the names of in the last month. As a vampire, she posed as human occasionally, but there had never been the need to keep it long enough to go shopping. Spike, of course, had bored them each and sunder with his unbreakable enthusiasm for human delicacies, but it has been decades since she has last seen Spike and Drusilla, and whatever meals had caught his enthusiasm then might no longer exist now.

Recalling the enthusiasm the school children of Sunnydale had for chocolate, and the fact these children were rather tasty themselves, she tries products by Hershey, and is horrified by the blandness of the taste. The bread is even worse, white and soft and without any resistance. There is not much she recalls from her first life, but she is sure bread was better than that in Jamestown. So much for progress.

Thankfully, there is one taste that won't disappoint. Leaving her unaccustomed human body with its weaknesses behind, she tracks down her darling boy in his dreams. She is her old self again here, literally, wearing the robes of centuries past. It's better to confront him first this way, and it is fitting. Rather relentlessly, he dreams of snow. This is a new obsession she can't understand, and it disquiets her that the snow he dreams up melts on her cheeks. After all, her body is not supposed to exude any heat. She has not fed yet.

He is walking through a Californian street in his dream, but the snow is as thick and heavy as the storms she recalls from their journeys through Russia. It doesn't make sense. When he sees her, he stops and stares at her.

"It can't be you, not here," he exclaims, and two things occur to her. He is not surprised to dream of her as such, which is rather gratifying. But he did not expect her in the snow. He expected the other, the school girl. The cheerleader he killed her for.

Oh, he deserves everything the lawyers have in store for him.

Even now, though, her smile does not falter. Instead, she bites in her left wrist, then kneels down and lets her blood pour in the street. All the snow turns red, quickly, inevitably, and he runs to her to make it stop. But as he touches her wrist, his face changes. There he is again, her darling boy, and he drinks from her. She is what she wants to be here, and so feels her face transform as she bites him in turn. All the tastes she ever wanted are back, and there is nothing but lovely red.

The snow, though, keeps falling.

In other news, andrastewhite has written her first Crusade fanfic. Ah, fannish life is good.
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illmantrim on December 2nd, 2004 05:08 am (UTC)
veryyyy coool!! On track and on character. I like this one!
Selena: FangedFour - Wisteriaselenak on December 2nd, 2004 05:58 am (UTC)
Thank you
She remains my favourite Jossverse female.
illmantrim on December 2nd, 2004 06:02 am (UTC)
Re: Thank you
She is very cool!
Kathyh: Kathyh Drusilla innocencekathyh on December 2nd, 2004 06:35 am (UTC)
Lovely. Beautiful use of Angel's "miracle" snow of redemption melting on Darla and then turning red. And I liked Darla's musing on human food too - shame she didn't get to try proper dark chocolate. Many thanks.

I hope you noticed I let you play with your favourite character rather than mine *g*.
Selena: Darla - Kathyhselenak on December 2nd, 2004 06:40 am (UTC)
Well, Los Angeles being a big city with some well-equipped shops, I hope she managed to find the good European stuff, chocolate- and breadwise, before she got (re)sired by Dru.

And yes, I noticed and was grateful.*g* It's not that I have anything against Spike, he just doesn't talk to me as well as others do. Besides, I'm sure I'd get the English slang wrong.
Kathyh: Kathyh Spike poetickathyh on December 2nd, 2004 07:36 am (UTC)
I never doubted your ability to write Spike, I was merely a little worried at what you might do to the poor "misunderstood woobie" *g* :::exits hurriedly:::
Selena: FangedFour - Wisteriaselenak on December 2nd, 2004 08:08 am (UTC)
*contemplates twisted Spike fic*

*decides Kita did that already*
Bimo: Coopbimo on December 2nd, 2004 07:10 am (UTC)
I knew, I was going to love this particular Christmas Carol the second I read the first line :-)

The fact that Wolfram and Hart lets its employees celebrate Christmas. is such a gorgeously twisted idea *g*
Selena: Darla - Kathyhselenak on December 2nd, 2004 08:05 am (UTC)
You just know they so would, after watching stuff like the Holland Manners memorial film in season 2 or the pep movie for employees in season 5. They're a family oriented law firm, after all. Down to the family sacrifices.*g*
V. Wishes: angelus/darla by raven_annabelleviciouswishes on December 2nd, 2004 09:13 pm (UTC)
Very nice insight into Darla as a human. Russia, blood, and snow were a perfect contrast to souled Angel, being human, and L.A.
Selenaselenak on December 2nd, 2004 11:39 pm (UTC)
Thank you, and I love your icon!
LondonKdS: No peroxide required!londonkds on December 2nd, 2004 11:51 pm (UTC)
Very nice. I like the comments about modern American food (Hershey's just tastes bizarre to me)
Selenaselenak on December 3rd, 2004 12:23 am (UTC)
Same here. I was fourteen when I first visited the country, and now I'm 35 and have visited countless times, but the chocolate and the bread remain... well, I've learned where to shop.*g*
prufrock, before he got famous: weslahlikeadeuce on December 4th, 2004 10:38 am (UTC)
who DOESN'T sometimes wonder. . .
. . .what Lilah would taste like?

And Lindsey -- poor misunderstood woobie. Big winks on that ;).

Plus, poor Darla, trying to break in her palate on American chocolate!

Then a swift turn for the dark and lyrical, what an ending!

Thanks for pointing me this direction; I've been low on computer time lately so I need to know what I'm missing from my f-list!
Selena: Darla - Kathyhselenak on December 4th, 2004 10:45 am (UTC)
better than...
...American chocolate, that's for sure.*g*

Glad you enjoyed it. BTW, did you ever read rozk s AU wherein Buffy got kidnapped by W&H just before her calling as a Slayer, saw her parents killed, got trained by Lilah into an assassin (a la what Lilah was planning with Bethany), turned against Lilah and orchestrated her big breakout with Darla? Two stories, fascinating, and an even darker, but plausible AU than the Wishverse.

Plus she pulls the Lilah/Buffy and the Darla/Buffy off in a plausible and dark way, too.
prufrock, before he got famous: wesdadlikeadeuce on December 4th, 2004 10:58 am (UTC)
no! I need to make a list of your recs -- I hadn't seen the Holtz/Justine one you mentioned a while ago either. I'm only recently getting into the idea of elaborate AU's. Do you know if anyone's done one where Wesley, instead of Holtz, ended up raising Connor in Qortoth? I was rewatching "Sleep Tight" and trying to figure out what the hell Wes was planning on DOING with the baby when/if he got away. That would be one solution.

Then I also had a dream last night that my 1-year-old niece disappeared. I completely blame it on that episode.
Selena: Darla - Kathyhselenak on December 4th, 2004 11:24 am (UTC)
Re: Lilah/Darla/Buffy!
No, I don't know that one. Intriguing premise. As for what Wesley thought he'd do with the kid - presumably Quortoth wasn't an option - not even Wes is masochistic enough to WANT to go into a hell dimension - and hey, Holtz wanted to go to Utah. So Wesley perhaps wanted to go back to England. Because even in the hypothetical case that Angel somehow (say, via W&H) made a legal claim to the kid, you just know the Watcher's Council would have been delighted to smack it down, and Wesley would have been pragmatic enough to go back to the WC if that was what it took to keep the prophecy from happening.

Links to Roz' two stories: the first, Buffy/Lilah one, and the sequel, in which Buffy meets Darla, and orchestrates the breakout.
prufrock, before he got famouslikeadeuce on December 4th, 2004 11:33 am (UTC)
Re: Lilah/Darla/Buffy!
oh, I like that too! I think Wes *would* go back to the Watchers if he thought it was the best thing -- though given a choice in the matter, he might prefer Qortoth!

I'm now getting a "5 things that never happened to Wes & Connor" bunny -- farm in Utah, Qortoth, back to the Council, rogue demon hunter/single dad, and what else? sends him to Hogwarts? ;)
Selenaselenak on December 4th, 2004 11:37 am (UTC)
Re: Lilah/Darla/Buffy!
He. I like the Hogwarts option. Wesley of course would apply for that cursed Defense of the Dark Arts Job in order to keep an eye on the kid.

However, that would still leave him with the problem of Connor's first 11 years. Somehow I don't think he'd ask Dumbledore, given Dumbledore's idea of how to ensure enough modesty in Children of Destiny.
prufrock, before he got famouslikeadeuce on December 4th, 2004 11:43 am (UTC)
Re: Lilah/Darla/Buffy!
He. I like the Hogwarts option. Wesley of course would apply for that cursed Defense of the Dark Arts Job in order to keep an eye on the kid.

Swoons with love at this idea. I was trying to describe Wes's arc to a friend who knows HP but not Angel, and so I said, "Imagine Percy Weasley growing up to be Sirius Black." Then I was just rereading the Snape-Lockhart wizards' duel in preparation for attempting my first HP-fic, and noticed that old Gilderoy and early Watcher-Wes have certain superficial qualities in common. And the number of permutations of slash conceivable among the characters I've mentioned in this post? Aye-aye-aye.
Selenaselenak on December 4th, 2004 11:52 am (UTC)
Re: Lilah/Darla/Buffy!
Hey, Percy and young Wes being alike is canon. And you know, I actually read Gilderoy/Snape somewhere.*g*

Anyway: yes. Wesley and Snape, snarking at each other. AND then Bellatrix turns up, and Wesley has again sexual tension with people from both camps, a former baddie and a present one.

Also, my boy Connor would think Draco was utterly useless because that would be canon Draco, not fanon Draco. Being Angel's and Darla's kid plus educated by Wesley he would be sorted into Slytherin, though. And prove his natural tendency to crush on older strong girls by secretly fancying Hermione.
prufrock, before he got famous: spikecloselikeadeuce on December 4th, 2004 12:02 pm (UTC)
Re: Lilah/Darla/Buffy!
Hey, Percy and young Wes being alike is canon.

According to Spike, anyway ;).

I confess to having a bit of Draco-love; it must be the hair. But yeah, Connor would make short work of him.

Do you think Wes is more of a Gryffindor or a Ravenclaw?

As for Connor's first eleven years, he'd spend them with the Weasleys. They wouldn't even notice another one; he'd just need to invest in some hair dye.
Selena: Watcher - Kathyhselenak on December 4th, 2004 12:14 pm (UTC)
Re: Lilah/Darla/Buffy!
Well, I think Wesley would get to choose. He's got the brains for Ravenclaw, but then so does Hermione, and he certainly has the Gryffindor bravery, though not in the storm in, think later fashion like certain other people. (Plus I don't think his early panic in the face of Balthazar counts. That was his first time. Neville panicked at first, too, then proved the bravery within. Also - Peter Pettigrew was a Gryffindor!)

So it would depend on Wesley, one thinks - the Hat would leave him the choice.

Good point about Connor and the Weasleys. Which would be the absolute opposite of his single child with Holtz experience, and might account for some interesting changes as far as personal relations are concerned. As mindwiped!Connor grew up with a sibling and family and promptly had a flippant sense of humour which pre-windwiped Connor did not (though pre-mindwipe Connor did make the very, very occasional joke - he was working on it), that would be one.

Meanwhile, in Los Angeles.... Angel makes an alliance of necessity with Lilah in order to get Connor extradited. Cordy promptly quits in disgust. Fred and Gunn split up amiably. Gunn goes with Cordy, Fred decides to stick around and keep an eye on Angel who gives into the UST with Lilah. Little does Fred know that Knox the cute intern who is flirting with her has already contacted Voldemort about the transport of a certain sarcophagus to America....
prufrock, before he got famouslikeadeuce on December 4th, 2004 12:23 pm (UTC)
meeting of minds
collaboration is a lovely thing. my previous take on Wes in the Potterverse never got further than "Wes/Sirius would be pretty." And poor Fred -- whatever the AU, she is so doomed!

I think Wes if Wes got to pick, he'd go Ravenclaw; but I've got a theory about Ravenclaws coming through in a pinch -- we've seen less of them than any other house, but I'm a bit of a Ravenclaw myself, so I give them the love. What Wes definitely ISN'T is a Slytherin; he wouldn't torture himself nearly so much if he were. Now I do think his father might be, but that's just my take on him.

Selenaselenak on December 4th, 2004 12:35 pm (UTC)
Re: meeting of minds
My problem with Wes/Sirius: Sirius. Not because I don't like him, but because Sirius wouldn't go for Wesley. No matter how you interpret the Sirius/Remus relationship - and I'm not of the school that says they just HAD to be lovers - the fact remains that the two strongest emotional ties Sirius forms by choice are with two stable people. (Remus and James. Young James might be arrogant, but nowhere near as mood-swingy as Sirius himself. Older James presumably grew into being responsible.)

Considering his family background, I think it's safe to say that Sirius, being himself an emotional mess, would steer as far away from emotional messes like Wesley as possible.

Agreed about Wesley not being a Slytherin. Ravenclaws: alas, aside from Cho and Marietta, they haven't been given much lines, though wait, wasn't Zacharias also a Ravenclaw?
prufrock, before he got famous: weslikeadeuce on December 4th, 2004 12:41 pm (UTC)
I think I completely missed the clues to that in canon. back to the drawing board ;).

seriously (hah! I didn't even write that on purpose, but I'm leaving it); maybe Wes could kidnap Mr. Black and lock him in a closet? I'm sure he'd have a very good and intellectually rationalized Ravenclaw reason for doing it. Cho's the only Ravenclaw I really remember. . .some of the faculty must be but nobody comes to mind.
Selenaselenak on December 4th, 2004 12:47 pm (UTC)
Err... he thinks escaped killer!Sirius is in league with Voldemort & Wolfram & Hart?

Though what Sirius would do to Wesley if he got locked up in a closet doesn't bear contemplating. I'm pretty sure sex won't be involved, but canine violence will. Maybe even a Crucio or two. Sirius must have picked up some curses at home, after all.*g*

No, I'm maintaining the member of the Black family Wesley would actually have sex with would be Bellatrix.
prufrock, before he got famous: weslahlikeadeuce on December 4th, 2004 12:52 pm (UTC)
was Bellatrix a Slytherin? i see Wes going for the Slytherin girls. dunno WHERE I got that idea.

also, I do tend to read Wes as fundamentally straight (despite wanting him to hook up with David Fisher in the course of trolling L.A. funeral homes for vampires; that's really my MC Hall w/a 5oclock shadow in a white T-shirt kink talking). but there could be some spelling and counterspelling and animorphing going on w/ Wes & Sirius.
Selenaselenak on December 4th, 2004 01:17 pm (UTC)
Yes, Bellatrix was a Slytherin. According to Sirius (admittedly not always a reliable source), the entire Black family was, except for him.

Also, Bellatrix and her sisters have obviously a parallel with the Mitford sisters going on - I mean, Narcissa = Diana, the one who married Oswald Mosley, Andromeda = Jessica, the rebellious one who ran away and married a communist, and Bellatrix = Unity, the Hitler groupie. No Nancy in sight, though.

Anyway, the whole thing is very English in the way the Mitfords were, and I can see Wesley exacting his Madonna/Whore complex via pining for Andromeda (who is married to Muggleborn Ted) and having dysfunctional sex with Bella. It's not like he's got a pattern going on, oh no.
prufrock, before he got famous: lola by ayrdaomeilikeadeuce on December 4th, 2004 01:24 pm (UTC)
poor Wesley
what he really needs is a profane German girlfriend.

I'm only saying.
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